Monday, August 28, 2017

Fog

When your mind mirrors the fog, 
Walk right into it, Let it consume you.
Annihilate the clouds of confusion
Then stride right out -
A stronger & braver you.

Let me be.

Let me be a little while longer,
Let me snuggle with my teddies. 
Let me play with the benevolent lion,
Who in reality would chew me out alive. 
Let me be in my warm cocoon, 
Let me hug my little husky.
Let me indulge in my sweet child-like dreams,
Because reality is harsher than it seem

Mask

This is your social face. 
A face you put on for the world to see. 
A look that is bright and full of life.

To show them that 
You are happy 
Confident 
Good 
That your day is perfect 
Pristine 
Beautiful

Not crumbling into pieces inside you 
Not shattering into pellets around you 
Not piercing your heart & clenching your lungs 
So hard that you cannot breathe 
Cannot move 
Cannot hear 
anything above all the deafening noise 
All the screaming thoughts
And the many murderous silences. 

This is the mask you paint on  
To comfort them that all is well.  

Knowing you.

For in my heart of hearts, I already know you.
I have been with you for years
I've seen you long before we met
I know your cracks, gaps
Wounds and scars.
Your laughter seems so familiar
Your smile so comforting
The flicker of anger so natural.

But I don't know you

I don't know who you are
I don't know the things you've been through
Pains you've felt and endured
Love you've touched and fallen for
I don't know your deepest secrets or lies
Your dreams or your desires.

But somewhere

In my heart of hearts
I know you.

Ringing in the panic

My head is ringing with all this noise.
The ringing is now reverberating
The reverberation now a gyration
The gyration now a blur.

My gut is churning with all this acid.

The churning turns into frothing
The frothing into a liquefaction
The liquefaction now a pulp.

My hand is tingling with all this heat.

The tingling becomes a twitch
The twitching now a palpitation.
The palpitation now a panic.

Clocks that crumble

Come 
Let's go some place brand new
For my shoes are collecting dust 
And my soles are getting itchy. 
My cam shutters slowing down 
My mind is sweetly sedating. 
Come
Let's go somewhere unknown,
Before the clock begins to crumble.