Friday, November 1, 2019

Ramblings of a Writer 1101

My fingers tap nervously on the keys 
Mind rushing like busy bees 
So much to make, there’s hardly any time. 

Small feet trudge on the roof above 
A rat, cat or dog, I can’t tell.
Loud noises from the next room 
Over spilled milk? Or ruined silk?  

I want to write, I want to create 
Something in form, Somewhat with rhythm 
But then my mind goes 
Wandering, jinxing 
The things I have 
The luck that prevails 
The ‘happiness’ that surrounds. 

Mind is wonderful. 
Powerful
Mental. 
I can read yours, 
sometimes better than you 
I want to help you, 
but I don’t know how to. 
Maybe I’m the one who
Needs the push, 
To find myself
To place my feet 
As grounded as I seem, 
Still can’t figure out whether 
Its land or water that I see.

‘You’ are the amalgamation 
Of people I meet 
People I trust 
Who leave. 
‘You’ is everyone
Gracing past my life 
Everyone who makes an impact 
Or I hope would make one. 
‘You’ are this potato mash of a person 
Who reminds me 
Time and again 
That I am enough. 
As are you. 

Billie Eilish on blaring speakers 
Floats down to the windows. 
Stale cuppa tea sits on the table 
Dim light slithers in the screens. 

The wax is dripping off 
The purple glass I gave you. 
No fragrance sadly, 
Just the comfort of the flame. 
Comfort of the warmth 

The fire that will never disappoint.

Are you listening?

Fresh marigolds,
Gush downstream.
Hush little child
You should be wild.


Lush evening skies
Blush the sun dies
Shush little baby
You should be up high

Plush the garden
Swoosh swing goes
Scream out kid
You should be heard. 

Ce monde étrange

Eerie lands of eerie people
Swamp this town oh so regal.
Puffy clouds of puffy people
Heads higher than the steeple.

Little quiet for the sane,
Much to ask, much in vain?
Pause a moment to ascertain
Prevailing peace or just disdain?

Creepy cats at creepy corners
World filled with sad loners.
Stale society, stale conformers
Stay still with your pseudo armours.
For it's a strange world
with strange folk.

End of Day

The moon was smiling at me today.
Sharp white curve against the blue.
The clouds soft, large and bright
Floated around her, carefree & light.
The lone lamp sat quietly by the bay
"Here riverside forever can't I stay?"

The mountains loomed gigantically ahead
The flame danced yellow, blue red.
The crescentric luna smirks at me
The beautiful night is yet to come. 

Castle in the Clouds

Lonesome heart that sighs
Omen, dark dark sky.
Fearful silly soul
Tearful, heavy Kohl.
Glorious dense deep clouds
Notorious, he screams aloud.
Lonesome girl by fire
Kingdom, look higher.

Love Song 1809

You are the sunshine to my eye
Pretty starlight in the sky
Soft wet breeze of mid July
Darling, smile don't sigh.
You are the sailor to the land
Tippie toes in damp sand
Bright bows to my head band
Precious, hold my hand
You are the bumble to my bee
Strange bristles of the tree
Fluffy clouds on a spree
Mon cher amour sourire 

Twenty Minute Drive

Strutting down the pavement
Chin up, hands in pocket
Take a deep breathe in
The chilly air of the river.

Flowing along the artery
There is so much life, yet
Strange come outdoors
To dive back into virtual realities?

Pausing down the pathway
The couples - old and new
The families - two or three
Receive glances of sheer jealousy. .

Sauntering through the street
The boy with the bright red shoes
Matching his girl's lovely rosy lips
A smile and a smirk tied in a bow. .

Ambling along the avenue
Watching the grey haired woman
Watch the sky merge from purple
To pink to grey to jet black.

Lingering for a moment
Behind the syndicate of oldies
Hiding from their distraught wives
Imbibing the beauty of the Ganges.

Traipsing through the trail
Avoiding the eve teasers
And mischief makers
To see the familiar lights
Smeared across the horizon.

Twenty minutes
To walk the length of the drive
Twenty minutes
Of animated Homo Sapiens
Twenty minutes
For inner peace & tranquility.

Nymphadora

Watch her sway
In and out
Watch her waltz
To and fro
Up and over
The light and shores
The nymphadora of the ravine.
White ghost like
Swift and soft
Sitting all quiet
Clean and cool
Beautiful
Darling nymphadora
What dreams you give
What fantasies you spring
All in a moment's passing.

Quintilis

Fluffy balls of cotton
Emerge from the mighty mountains
Exploding miniature atom bombs
In the ravines of the sky
White streaks of slytherins
Merge over the riveting river
Standing still over the waters
Holy spirits of the nymphs
The downpours of the day
Made all clean green & serene
Purple skies bide adieu to Quintilis
Half the year passed away.

Goodbye beautiful month of July
You have been very kind to me.

Patience

Patience is a virtue.
True be whoever said so.
Kindness is a boon
For each has their own baggage.
Empathy is an asset
For each has their own troubled path.
Patience is a gift,
To be quiet and forgiving.

Parcel to go

Pack me a bottle of petrichor to go
Like all the goodies you've stuffed into my bag.
Pack me a cassette of your morning chatter
Like all the letters you've sneaked into my purse
Pack me a painting of the hill station view
Like all the love you give me u conditionally.
Pack me a piece of home
Because it's time to go be an grown-up again. 

Wednesday, June 26, 2019

Pause

Time always slows down in the coffee shop
Amongst the humming humans and clinking cutlery 
I peer outside the tall windows at the life of the city 
Women in suits, strutting up & down the pavement; 
talking rapidly - something at work maybe
Men rushing with tubelights and printers;
Hurrying to get the work done before their shift.
Christian women in their Goanese dresses; 
Devouring their midweek ice cream cones 
Teenage girls with their teenage guys;
Laughing their heads off - not a care in the world. 

Oh how wonderful it is to stop time. 
To watch each second move so nonchalantly. 


Time always slows down when I'm home 
I peer out of my bedroom window at the city lights 
We brought the stars to the ground, dear 
Twinkling to the beats of the traffic noise
The front door opens to a familiar scent 
Of damp cement and pigeon poop.
How magnificent is this city 
Where just the sight of people revives you 
The smell of the rain thrives you and
The sound of life re-energizes you.

Saturday, June 22, 2019

The Hills have Eyes

The air smells damp with the perineal rain 
The mountains shape shift in and out 
Like cardboard cut outs on Aladdin’s Play

Dirty snow turns into water
Gushing and gurgling; 
Rushing and giggling;
Over chalky white rocks, 
Surely into the valley.
The rocks magnanimous, 
shinning slate grey;
With natural scars, 
running down their entirety.
The trees gorgeous, 
shimmering dark green
Their pinnacle tops, 
staring right into the blue sky.

The sky turns purely purple out of the blue
Lines smudged into borders of white clouds 
Bright orange the sun was sinking from view . 
The terraced meadows
lush and rich, 
The farmers unhesitantly 
smile and wave
The bus sways gracefully 
along the soft curves
Rushing upstream 
The slithering river 
Light sieves through 
leaves of the dense forest 
Warming me with 
the sense of superior motives 
How beautiful is this world, with 
Its birds & monkeys 
Its ravines & rainbows 
How powerful is The Mother
A pop to shut your ears 
A swish to make you sick
How treacherous are we, lost 
In our fights & traumas 
In our problems & troubles

Forget, its not important
For you are the
Universe in totality.
As long as there is 
Force in my feet 
Air in my lungs 
I will live to see everything 
This sphere has to offer 
‘Cause her magnificence
Is calling for me. 🌏

End of the Line

Is this the end of the world? 
The line beyond which
we would fall into nothingness.

Is this the edge of the map?
The nook beyond which 
Nothing can be sketched into existence.

Is this the last turn of the road?
The curve beyond which 
The terrain turns into a no man's land. 🗺️

Dark Side of The Moon


The clock strikes one, the air still warm
The shutters latched, the crescent smiling. 
One day at a time, 
A moment to learn something new 
A minute to see a different side of you

The clock strikes one, the sky very clear 
The gates locked, the first quarter calling 
One night at a time,
A twinkle in the deep dark blue 
A second to see the other side of you. 🌗 

Tuesday, May 28, 2019

Canvas



How beautiful it is to be so aware. 
Aware of the sea of people flowing so relentlessly beside you 
Observant of their different faces and emotions. 
Passing kitchen after kitchen serving bhaturas the size of human heads.
Conscious of the hot then cool gush of air as you drive by the canal banks
Of the bright hotel lights twinkling as if they were the stars themselves
The new moon sky where the glittering celestials got room to shine. 
Squinting through the darkness to get a glimpse of the river 
Peering at the homes dotting the hills around it. 
Finally you reach the end of line & the bright 'city' lights suck you back to reality.
The neon lights banish all the glorious darkness 
The canvas that would help you glow

Lingering leftovers


I left a piece of my heart in the wilderness
Amongst the tall towers and wandering wraiths. 
I left a piece of my mind in the mountains
Floating in the clouds above all the consuming chaos.
I left a piece of my soul with the spirits 
Dancing to the soothing silence of the zeniths. 

Out of order


Having pipping hot tea on blurry borders,
Bus swaying ferociously over sharp corners 
The French foreigners needed translation 
The youthful gang a little deflation. 
Street lights twinkled in the rain 
Specular view through the misty pane
Quiet is the mind that sits still 
Full is the life that has thrill

Universes' Spicule


It's strange 
How powerful a photograph is
How fickle words are
& how permanent actions are 
But then you remember 
You are a tiny spicule 
In this ginormous universe.
So sit back relax 
Sip your délicieux coffee
& enjoy la comédie show 

Apercevoir


Chai Wala misses you 
The one day you couldn't 
make it for the evening break. 
A large smile & humble heart 
Is what he offers with his cuppa.

The selfless store keeper 
Offers you his lunch.
Just an outstretched hand 
a hearty welcome
& a warm conversation.
.

The mother and her two children 
Pack their bags on the sidewalk 
The lil' girl squeals with glee 
At the sight of the monkeys 
While her son takes cover. .
.
The dogs are unhappy
With the बंदर झुंड
The waters are gushing on 
The light blazes downward
The dust swirls all around but .

The girls with the matching glasses
Can't take a moment to
Look up from their phones 
All the world's passing by, dearies. 
Look up. 

Kosmos


A few minutes of quiet
Before the confusion of the crowds 
Before the maddening of the memsahibs 
Before the pandemonium of the patients 
A few seconds for me 
And the unadulterated Kosmos.

Lumos


A day to remember 
A day to celebrate 
The life of someone
Who so easily
brightens all of ours. 
Forever smiling 
Forever twinkling 
Ever grateful are we 
That you bring so much 
happiness to the world. 
Stay blessed 
Stay charming 
The light that you have 
Unfathomable force
That you are, 
Always remember
Always celebrate
All the glory
That is you.

Stand

Stand tall, chin up
Pause & see 
The branches holding on 
Stop & watch 
The mist swooshing by
Halt & sense 
All the will inside of you 
Stand up, shoulders square 'cause the sky is the limit. 

Gorgeous Goodbyes


The streets have emptied .
& barricades lifted 
Time to say adieu .
& reminisce
all the time gifted 

Follow the Maddening Crowd


The unending queues 
Beginning at dawn
end disappointingly! 
What is it you are looking for? 
Is being part of the herd
So, rewarding?
Is following a blind king
That satiating?
What is it you plan to achieve? 
Can’t you see the puppeteers?
Pulling on feeble strings
Can’t you see the pied piper?
Leading with muted pings
Can’t you see the show? 
The ever-blinding ruse
beginning in the frigid sand 
end disconcertingly! 

Lost Confluences


The tide of people - 
overpowering 
The wave moved 
in unison –
up the road – 
down the slope 
Follow the red flag 
they said 
Hold hands tight
they said 
Don’t lose one another 
they tried.

A monkey cap lay 
crumpled outside 
The waiting areas full
but chairs empty
Shoulders bumping, 
fists pumping 
Words thrown, eyes
shown. 
A stampede brewing
But the cap was left lost & alone.

She decided to leave him 
The slipper abandoned 
by his partner 
Lay dejected and rejected 
Drowning in the 
sand and dust 
Hopelessly staring at the floor 
He never knew how to be by himself
What was his purpose in the world then? .

The loud speaker blared on 
Day in & night out 
Over worked and under valued
He croaked on about 
all the missing people 
He screeched on 
In hopes to find those lost.
Cards dropped, hands slipped 
Phones stolen ; wallets cut. 
The speaker was all that lay 
Between the lost & found. 

Aventure Exotique

New places with old faces, 
Exotic spaces with raw paces
Truly sublime are these worlds 
Peculiar the wind life twirls
Come see the spirit ,
Come feel the madness,
The adventure of a lifetime.

Wednesday, April 24, 2019

Journey to the Mountains.

I want to tell you a story. A story that is not cliché. A story about a journey, a journey into the mountains. A journey that made me look at life in a whole different perspective. A perspective that has left me feeling more helpless than useful.

I took a trip to Mcleodganj in the spring-summer of 2019. I am currently based in Rishikesh and the journey was 12 hours north of here. A very comfortable bus ride up and around the swirly roads dropped me off at a pleasant 13 degrees at Mcleodganj Bus stand. Breathing in the crisp air and sipping in the hot tea were the first 2 things I did up on landing. How beautiful it was to be there. How liberating to be free of everything that tied me down in the valley.

With a little help from Google maps and strangers strangely up at 6 am, I found my way to the little dorm I had rented for my stay. The view from the terrace-cum-penthouse-cum reception was magnificent to say the least. They took 3 hours to give me my lodging but it hardly mattered. The sun was soft, the snow peaks kind and the food hot and delicious.

One portion of the trip was of course the sights – the temples, the church, the stores and of course the cafes. But this holiday was different. It was about the people. The stories that came along with them. And the different journeys we all are on.

Buddhist temples always take my breath away. The peace it disseminates from miles away is something I don’t think I would ever be able to describe in words. The power you can feel in their prayers and the jolly in their smiles – also things I wish for you to experience yourself. I visited the temple twice. I was fortunate to witness them having their ritualistic one on one debate. It made me wonder why we don’t do the same. Why don’t we have healthy discussions about things that matter or at least things that matter to us? Would it be so difficult? Wouldn’t that trigger our neurons too?

This was the first trip I went absolutely berserk shopping. Never have I ever splurged on myself. I must’ve bought something for every store on the street. A key ring from this one, a scarf from that, prayer flags of course and definitely not to forget - postcards for everyone. I needed an extra bag back just to fit the gifts and souvenirs.

Churches are my second favorite holy place of worship. A lovely stroll outside McLeod, on the main highway. It reminded me of the roads of Mussoorie. Glorious tall trees beside the long winding roads. The grass smelling so fresh and St. John in the wilderness living up to his name. Small little monument with a very on-display-graveyard. I missed mom dearly then. If she had been there, she would have surely told me stories of the spirits luring around. There was one caretaker at the church. He was patiently dusting each seat of each row before he moved to sweeping the porch. A golden cross stood tall in the center in front of the pristine stained glass. I settled in on a seat behind the old man I entered with; before the noisy teenagers barged in giggling and pretending to be religious. Oh boy do I sound like a grumpy old woman!

I absolutely dislike treks. I made one up to a small village called Dharamkot nonetheless. A 30-minute climb straight up with at least 5 stops to catch my breath and slow my pounding heart. Treks always remind me of my baby sister. Nothing stops her. Twisted ankle – not an issue. Recovering from surgery – just a small hiccup. Longer and treacherous the journey, she will be there! And I can’t do a tiny 30 min climb. Oh, what a laugh she would’ve had. On top of the climb, we found a little café – Morgan’s Place: design based on Alice in Wonderland with a view just as wonderful.

The first set of people I met were the caretakers of the stay – ruthless business man – owner: who was full of himself and didn’t bother to hide it. His little minions – the true managers of the stay – were kind and gentle. Not a harsh word beyond audible decibels; not a word of protest on any request made and always ready with a cuppa tea! 

Then came my roomies – 2 lost Indian girls inspite of their notebook with Things to do & Places to see.  A Korean damsel who had spent 3 weeks in south India and was very happy to be back in the cool northern latitudes. A Canadian gentleman who lost his bags at the airport. This was his second trip to India and then Nepal. He planned to do the Annapurna Circuit. A Bengali banker- voluntarist who seemed so at-peace in the hills that it broke my heart knowing she was returning to my ever-favorite city of Mumbai. She showed me around town the way only a local could – the right stores to shop, the really good cafes + bakeries and of course a plate of authentic Himachali lunch. The co-caretaker of the stay an Anglo-indian reminded me of Ruskin Bond. A singer-artist of Colaba who cracked the same cliché, cheesy jokes that I do. Whose mom was a nurse and understood the troubles of my career even without having to state it. The three of them and a few more sang the most beautiful tunes on that almost full moon night making time stop at the coffee shop behind the hills.

I think the cherry on top of all these people was the 40-something year old MBA professor who was my seat-mate on my ride back. I never got his name and I never got to say goodbye. His entire family were doctors and he had 2 children in school but didn’t intend to impose any of the rat race rules on them. He gave me some unsolicited advice that reminded me of my own father. Advice on how to be financially secure and advice on how to live. Live because of today. Not for tomorrow or day after. But because it is now that you are living for. Be aware. Be aware of your breath, your heartbeat. Of the people around you. Of the air brushing against you. Of those thoughts you are trying to control. Be quiet. Say what is needed and nothing more. And one day everything you say will be true.

Time had slowed down in the thick air of the Himalayas. I am a loner and was happy to find the cozy corner at the Illiterati café, with my hot chocolate and Tom Hanks collection of short stories. Ironically, the people I did meet were looking for company. Maybe they were escaping their reality and did not really wish to be alone. Maybe we are all misunderstood and are looking for someone to finally get it. Maybe solo-traveler is just a misnomer and it doesn’t really exist. Maybe you need to see what I saw, to feel what I am feeling right now to make sense of this gibberish. I feel detached and aware at the same time. I can feel all the forces that surround us and feel helpless that the others can’t see it too. I now know there is so much more to the mundaneness we presume to be life. More to the routine of wake up - brush – work – eat – sleep. I just have to figure out what. I just have to find my passion. Find my calling.